#Flat.

Man, My Life... like wtf? it's full of randoms trying to be flies on the wall. Like get the fuck out of my life! Why are you so worried about me?
-You can't be jealous
-You couldn't hate me that much although that's part of it
-You just have nothing better to do with your sad pathetic life
Why must you hate and comment on my recent endeavours. Get your own life! The fact that your reading my blog (unless your a close friend) is outrageous! Get out of here girl! lol After June 1st you will never see me again so why must you worry about me and mine; i understand your concern with your relationship with Miles... seriously idk what you think, but i was never gonna tell him who he could be friends with... idgaf quite honestly as long as you aren't talking shit idc... chill out or something; if i didn't like you b4 i don't care about your life now enough to give you the energy; but please don't test me... i'm dying trying to use all of the self-control that i have to not kill people lol. I'm just doing me; i'm not trying to piss anyone off. I genuinely like miles and vice versa. So stop trying to comment... even if you hate me be happy for miles... be more mature and you should really care less. I swear an IDGAF attitude will keep you happy; just look at me i'm elated a lot regardless of what you may believe. Don't let people get to you; they aren't worth it

If you don't take anything i said into consideration please take this:

Don't go hard and say anything to my face or in my presence b/c i don't have enough self-control to prevent myself from doing something reckless in that 30 seconds of rage (i suck) seriously i actually want to walk lol; i suck @ controlling anger, but i've been doing a lot better lately which a lot of you bitches are still talking. lol so please stay behind my back <--- that was not sarcasm seriously stay behind my back : )

#Flat.

Ok so let me give yall the realness
Honestly i don't care what you think about my recent endeavors. I do shit b/c i want to; not b/c it pisses you off. get tf outta here. Seriously? I do me and you need to start doing you. Yea i did it; and nobody's gonna hit me in my fuckin mouth so get the FUCK over it! Your too scared to even get close enough to do so; so please stop tryna act hard around your little friends and behind my back b/c if i step to you your gonna piss your fuckin pants <--- tht was funny lol. Therefore, you need to back off like quickly b/c i will:
-make You kill yourself
-make You suck mor dick than usual
-make You suck your teeth in bio AGAIN then you rly won't believe in love anymore
-make You fuck to fill your emotional void until you catch something

Try Me. <--- please push the fuckin try me button!!
Silly Ass Bitches; I swear put the most hated on boy and girl @ school together and Randallstown will have a fuckin field day!

You never thought WE would end up liking eachother

You never thought I would be as happy as i am

You never thought I would be hanging with the Krew I hang with <--- ewww preposition

You never thought I wouldn't take David to prom

Well "Never Say Never" Bitch
Oh Yea ---> Stop Choking

#Flat.

"Never Say Never"

Who would ever thought a guy
Would want a girl like me
Who would ever thought that I
Would fall so easily
Who would ever thought that we
Would finally come to be
I guess they don't know
How much you mean to me
Who would ever thought that they
Would have some words to say
We'll go on anyway
It's alright - it's okay
Take whatever comes our way
Together we will stay
I got three words to say
Never say never

I can't believe they'd stop our happiness
By trying to pull us down with such a mess
Why can't they let us live just like the rest
And keep us out of all this crazy madness
Now when they talk I think it's just a shame
That all they do is sit and think my name
When all that i do mainly
Sit and think about my baby and me

Now baby they can't believe that
You and me are together
That's why they should have never
Never said never
There were times when we thought that
You and me could never be together
That's why we should have never
Never said never

Now there's a lot of talkin' goin' round
About the way me and you are gettin' down
What are they jealous are they hatin' me
I guess they all have their own Ph.Ds
I wish that they would just stop sweatin' me
Stop tryin' to get the best of me
No matter what they say baby
We gotta move on cause we're gonna be happy

We didn't let the thoughts that we had
We didn't let the words that they said
Keep us from the love we now have
Never say never
Simply for me to see when
Never would've been never if allowed
Now that we are together
Never say never

#Flat.

Ok so this blog came from me attempting to write about another topic #fuckthat one for now b/c i need to write this down. The only major flaw that i wan't to change about myself (b/c i wouldn't say i'm cocky, but i honestly love myself and who i am and i expect whoever i end up with to accept me for who i am), but anyways my flaws is i try to be everything, which is impossible... let me elaborate.

I want to be everything! like i will feel annoyed if someone likes something that i don't have whether i like that person or not.

Examples:
Body Features
Clothing Style
Taste in Music
Artistic Ability
Etc.

Ok all of the examples are insignificant andi'm kind of mad that i listed all of those (I wrote more when i wrote it by hand at 1st), but the point is i don't like when someone says I'm not good enough or even a trait of mine is not good enough. It genuinely bothers me when someone wants something that i lack.

Now don't get me wrong I'm not gonna change any of these traits b/c someone wants something else or better. That was NEVER gonna happen. Like i said: I Love Myself! and someone will love me too flaws and all < --- thats a song lol. I just hate it when someone says "I'd rather have..." or "I like this ... and you don't have that". Ugh it blows me; its fucking annoying and i hate that it bothers me. I actually thought i was over this, but apparently not lol. UGH i suck b/c of this. Well i scuk b/c of a lot of things. I just want everyone to want what i am i guess, which is outrageous... even if i don't want them ... how lame *dislike ... I'm rly working on changing this about myself any suggestions???

Oh and don't mistake this for jealousy... it's not and i don't feel like elaborating so just accept the fact that it isn't this isn't a effin Essay lmao

I hope this makes sense; well actually idgaf b/c it makes sense in my head so fuck yours <--- unless your someone i care about then you can feel free to ask me : )

Umm just a flaw that i would like to change b/c perfect is lame and boring so i would change any of the other ones (scratch that) i'm not pressed to change any other ones b/c they have yet to pose a problem; this one just sux hard!


#Flat.

Ok Soooo Let me start off by saying Spring Break was Great!

Things ended
Things started
;but most importantly:
Things Changed

I really needed to make changes in my life and this spring break, w/ the help of my Krew, has aided me in making those changes, but... I'll elaborate on those l8r

now.....
It started off boring and rainy; I had plans to go to a hotel w/ the Krew, but honestly i didn't think they would happen ... To my surprise they did! Pap couldn't come : (, but everyone else was there... we missed her a lot; but while there i had a lot of fun (and wings : 9) <--- lol

I hung out with the Krew damn near everyday. Chillin @ my house, or Pap's house, or just going anywhere lol. It was sooo simple, yet soooo fun!

I really feel good about them ... I really love each one of them sooo much in their own little way for their own little reasons...

I'm not gonna get into all that though

Also i got really close to someone this spring break. I knew he liked me for a little while (he didn't know i knew) I never really htought about him that way, but i realized that i really like him over this break ... hmmm go figure (yea thats all you get) ...

I also let go of someone this break... it was time i had to come to my senses. I was in love and is fun, but its over. I've known for a long time i just didn't want to believe it ... My Krew indirectly made me realize i was being dumb... ily guys <3

I've also been ditched for prom by my expected prom date since 10th grade ... lol i'm not trippin though ... you'll be shocked to find out who my new date is ; ) (I actually wanted to go with this person before i was ditched so i guess everything happens for a reason) (it's kinda weird cuz i just realized tht this man really predicted this too good) lol

I'm extra excited for the days to come; things should be a lot better now...

but most importantly...

My Changes:
~I have accepted that my ex-boyfriend is my EX
~I got my fuck sensitivity mentality back
~I realized that i DON'T need a guy in mt life to be happy
~I'm 17 i'm not pressed to be settled down and in love
-if it happens i will be open though
~It's the end of senior year= Time to have the time of my life with the Krew
~I have a Krew <--- w/o any phonies : )
~I actually like somebody
-Wow this doesn't happen often
~I'm not in love with someone
-this doesn't happen often
~I'm not going to prom with David
-Shocker!
-And it's by choice
~I'm not secretly sad or angry deep down inside
~I smile all the time (even when i'm alone)
-Shocker
~I've gotten my intelligence back (lol)
~I'm not a bluff (not talking about sex)
~He deserves it so i don't feel bad or bitter (i still luv ya!) : )
~I have a lot in common with the unexpected
~My intimidating; bitch personality eventually pays off
-not like i ever felt bad about it cuz thats just me, but i appreciate it
~A lot of people that <3 you hate me lol
-i just realized tht; its always been there though
~<3 looks like an extra pointy penis and balls!! LMFAO!!!
~I'm not gonna be the only one laughing in school tommorrow
~My iPod is stuck on Replay : ) <3

#Flat.

Sensitive people blow me; b/c they refuse to admit their sensitivity; instead they call people like me bitches b/c I tell it like it is and their feelings are hurt. Honestly idc b/c if you weren't so sensitive you would have taken what I said into consideration I can tell certain people like it is b/c I know they can handle it, but I was NEVER gonna bite my tongue b/c your a sensitive little pussy. Man up. Idc if I hurt your feelings b/c I'm speaking my mind and I'm most likely trying to help you out and tell you what everyone else was scared to say. Stop being so sensitive ... Thts prolly the only reason you hate outspoken people; we hurt your feelings; your pathetic ... Guess what. We Dont Care.

#Flat.

We're not together, but we are... You love me; I love you no denying that, but our relationship is not good for me. we say we're single and we say we're free to date, but we truly hate to see the other date. This can go on no more. I feel trapped in a relationship with you; that shouldn't be the case. who would want to date one of us when they know about us. I hate, when asked about my relationship, replying "It's Complicated" <--- That makes me sick. I'm all or none with you now. I tried so hard to be with you and make it work... I'm done trying b/c like when you were pushing me away, i'm pushing you away. Away from infringing upon my life. College will be here soon we need to stop living in a fairy take. Wake Up. This isn't gonna work-out. I'm through with "It's Complicated"
My Relationship Status OFFICIALLY = Uncomplicated

#Flat.